No, not the “Pumpkin patch photo op into the sun failure.” That was mostly funny. It was a different moment. Here’s what happened.
Saturday morning I took the three kids to Sam’s Club for our weekly “save money by spending $100” trip. On the way home the radio was on. Whether it was Radio Disney (my kids love love love Radio Disney, I do not not not) or another station I don’t know. Then, IT happened…to what extent IT was an IT I don’t know. Allow me to ‘splain.
A song came on the radio. I did not know that Trey even knew this song let alone the words to the chorus. He’s mostly a Selena Gomez fan (he’s not stupid). However, he started singing it and before I knew what he was singing I yelled out, “Sing it out Trey!!!” Now, you have to realize that to a degree Joe, but definitely Bella does not normally let this happen. They will interrupt, ask me to change the channel, start singing as well, anything. This time though, they did not. They were simply quiet. So my screaming, silly, out of control, can’t hear so well so he turns everything up WAY loud, YoungWarrior, sang in the most angelic (not the norm) voice:
“When I’m gone (when I’m gone)
When I’m gone (when I’m gone)
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me by my hair
You’re gonna miss me everywhere,
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
When I’m gone
When I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone
You’re gonna miss me by my walk
You’ll miss me by my talk
You’re gonna miss me when I’m gone”
I know that I, and perhaps Joe and Bella, sat there in stunned silence. I was overcome and my eyes welled up. Whether Trey knew what he was singing or not it didn’t really matter but I swear he very well may have. I have no idea if Joe and Bella caught on, noticed my watery (but not tearing) eyes, or had just zoned out, but they were quiet. The van was silent except for the voice of that YoungWarrior…angel and the radio.
To a degree my point is three fold:
1. I wanted you to know how special that moment was.
2. I really wonder if the four of us shared an intense knowing moment.
3. Regardless, I had a moment. As detached as you might want to be (I choose not to be…at all) there are moments when the overall situation barges it’s way into your life/consciousness in a way that you cannot deny it.
I suppose I could ask Joe and Bella about it but if they weren’t thinking about it then they would now. Perhaps the bigger question is did Trey have a clue? I would really really bet that he did not. However, it sure was different than any other moment we’ve all had in the van together.
In conclusion, I don’t really have much to add. It was an amazing, touching, horrifically beautiful moment. Maybe that’s life, one very quick big amazing, touching, horrifically beautiful moment that barges it’s way into your consciousness. Who am I to say it isn’t?